announcement 
of new project
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love, dylan
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dear ed,

i miss you so much sometimes - i find it difficult to express how badly i've wanted to talk with you the past couple of months - over our usual bubbles and brownies. i have so much that i am feeling right now... so much to say... and the only way i seem to be able to access my words is to start with a letter to you.

i can't tell you where or who... but i can say that i personally know of over 10 youth who attempted to end their lives over the past 2 months. we used to be able to talk about these things ed. how we related, understood - and most importantly how we hoped that our students (and ourselves) could ride the waves again and come out on the other side of it one more time. because, we knew from our own experiences, that even though these times did come for us - and would likely come again - that it was worth it to stick around to see what we would find when we were able to raise our heads and find our breath again. beautiful opportunities were waiting for us even if we couldn't see them...  and it was okay to be/feel : dramatic, sad, tortured, joyful, grateful, pissed... and that none of it had to take away from our desire, or lack there of, to be in our lives and further, that it was more important for all of us to experience our moments - both graceful and awkward - as we approached our futures.

what i am having some difficulty with right now is, why often when one "cries for help" , it seems to inspire annoyance, intolerance, and an automatic shunning from our families and community. that the people we are often looking to for support enter a sort of emotional withholding pattern. 

when in our lives did we stop answering these cries for help?  when did this response become standard, acceptable, and somehow justified? 

i remember back to when i first sensed this abandon for myself - i was so young - kicking and screaming for people to help me and see me. i remember that very few people actually stepped up and i am reminded yet again of how lucky i am to have survived such emotional recklessness.

ed, while i forgive, remember, and celebrate you - i am also deeply conflicted by the loss of you. as i approach the 5 year anniversary of your death i find myself confronted by my anger and a deep deep sadness. we had a deal ed - and while i understand - it is such a shame ed... simple.

in my life and work i am often asked... so, what do you do now? how did you make the changes necessary to repair the wounds you have received and inflicted? where/how do you find that level of forgiveness? i am reminded of a very simple quote and idea... "be the change you wish to see in the world" (mahatma gandhi) and continually remind yourself again and again to be kinder than necessary for everyone is fighting some kind of battle. sound easy? it's not. not always anyway.

5 years ago - much in response to your suicide, i launched the Sent(a)Mental Project - A Memorial to LGBTIQA Suicides - and over the years in addition to that projects growth - Sent(a)Mental Studios has expanded to include the open studio based Sent(a)Mental - Youth Project, the Lead With Your Heart Collection and more. thousands of youth have worked with the studio through open studio hours, off site groups - and a variety of schools, conferences, and alternative outreach programming... and so to mark the official 5 year anniversary i would like to announce the next project to come from Sent(a)Mental Studios ....

... stay tuned.

Announcement and Call for Submission - 
COMING - NOV. 8th, 2011

much love to you ed.
i miss you everyday.
love, dylan

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sent(a)mental studios is being used more than ever... now with 2 locations and even more youth accessing the studios... we really need your support.

won't you please help fill the studios with the supplies it needs?
 
please make a donation today !!!

mail check or money order to - 
sent(a)mental studios
PO Box 2537
denver, co 80201
USA

or donate via paypal - 
direct to studio using
sentamentalstudios@gmail.com

thank you in advance!
love, dylan
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today is hard ... simple
i officially enter my annual season of mourning
to honor this i share this with you 
now to honor myself
i must go paint
************************
good mourning
as i feel the chill
in the air 
i breath
in... deep
out
as if to announce 
fall has arrived 
and i can't help 
but feel 
the possibilities 
that come with change
************************
see you next week.
love, dylan

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and occasional tuesdays
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GOOD TO KNOW... a few notes from dylan

i just finished moving my home to boulder, co. i moved in with my amazing partner and her beautiful 3 year old. i am loving my life, nesting, and merging our lives together.

sent(a)mental studios will be closed for the month of august... taking some time to re-group after a very busy year.

the studio still remains in denver and it is my hope to spend much of the rest of my summer reconnecting with my creative innards by producing new work, reading, organizing, etc.. i will still be maintaining the sent(a)mental studios - open studio hours on wed and sat through july and providing an open studio at rainbow alley on thursdays.  the studio will be closed for august - and then reopen with new fall hours after labor day
( i will be announcing those hours mid to late aug ).

COMING SOON !!!
sent(a)mental studios will be launching a satellite studio in Catalyst High School in Lafayette, CO

CONTINUING !!!
sent(a)mental studios is super excited to be continuing  its work with the Jefferson County Open School as well as facilitating suicide prevention groups with Voz y Corazon (MHCD).

HELP !!!
i am seriously looking into publishing the lead with your heart collection as well as the sent(a)mental project - a memorial to LGBTIQA suicides. please contact me if you have and connections, ideas, or can help in making this happen.

thanks so much for stopping by, please consider helping to support the studio and its projects with a cash donation and/or gift card and don't forget to check back to see the new work that we will be posting in early fall.

love dylan
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random - (c) dylan scholinski 2011
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random - (c) dylan scholinski 2011

the other morning i found myself so overwhelmed by the landscape on my drive between boulder and lakewood. i have done this drive many times now... but on this day i was not in such a rush to get to the Jefferson County Open School ( Graduates from Jefferson County Open School Speak ) to teach my class and was able to pull over... and over... and over... as i was often brought to tears by the beauty. the view was steamy as the sun was just beginning to peak over the hills and burn off the frost from the night before. here are a few shots (that cannot possibly do it justice... but i love just the same) for you to enjoy.

wish#33
may you be overwhelmed
by something beautiful
today and every day.
and feel free to share it here... i'd love to read about it.

love, dylan

mood:
grateful to be alive

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2 sets of 3 - from the random photography of dylan scholinski - (c) 2011

sometimes i just want...

to post random photos that i like together.

to follow the feeling my heart gets when i see a flock of birds fly over me.

to slam on my breaks at the drivers that feel the need to be so close to me when we are going 75 miles per hour.

its just one of those days.
love, dylan

look for updates and blog posts on most tuesdays and occasional fridays
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i am so sorry i have been away so much lately.
i am in the midst of juggling a lot right now....
mainly between -
battling illness. colds, coughs, congestion... headache.... blah.
teaching, 10+ open studios hours, and facilitating 7 suicide prevention groups
with a variety of denver metro youth... yeah!!!
as well as gearing up for the boulder area launch of

Benjamin Ballerina : Pretty Tough Clothing for Kids
( which i hope you will come to if you are in the area... or please check us out online if you can't )
It is my hope and desire to get back to some serious work this march and april... so please check back.

love, dylan

look for updates and blog posts on most tuesdays and occasional fridays
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sometimes 4 02/11/2011
 
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shadow study - (c) 2011 dylan scholinski
sometimes i can't help but notice the shadows that surround me
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collected for the eavesdropping series - (c) 2011 dylan scholinski

i have been collecting random images from friends, strangers,
as well as my own facebook posts for quite a while now...
keeping the one's that really catch my eye or intrigue me...
sort of virtual eavesdropping...
and with the intention that i might make a zine, book,
or something someday.

today i overheard 4 teenagers talking about a school assignment
where they were supposed to eavesdrop on people and gather
random lines to make poems...
and i thought...
perfect.

how about if i collected both the visual and the auditory...
and somehow combined them and added a new section to my website?

coming soon...
eavesdropping
an online zine/blog
by dylan scholinski

eavesdropping is the act of secretly listening to the private conversation of others
without their consent, as defined by Black's Law Dictionary.[1]
This is commonly thought to be unethical and there is an old adage that eavesdroppers
seldom hear anything good of themselves...eavesdroppers always try to listen to matters
that concern them.

definition taken from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Eavesdropping

a current eavesdrop...
what if mustard and ketchup were in the same bottle?
really makes you think, huh?

mood- excited, nosey
love, dylan

look for updates and blog posts on most tuesdays and occasional fridays
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sometimes 3 02/04/2011
 
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wabi sabi - (c) 2011 dylan scholinski
sometimes i am overwhelmed by beautiful textures
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a few sundays ago i was hanging out in a friends kitchen.
i discovered a cookie sheet she had been using for rolling candles and was immediately taken in by the textures on the surface of the sheet and began shooting.
here are a couple of the images from that day.
i will continue going through the images and posting the finished series soon.

thanks for looking.
let me know what you think.

love, dylan


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